Notebook of DREAMS

three cheers for me.

this blog belongs to DESIREE tan zhi ying.
desiree will be turning 21 on the 24th december 2009. she will love anything you give her, including your hugs and kisses.

you can add desiree on msn at crushgirl_18@hotmail.com or add her on facebook.
desiree studied in st. anthony's canossian primary and secondary school and later moved on to tampines junior college.
she is currently in SMU, doing her bachelors in business management and hopes to graduate by 2011.
right now, she doesn't need anything except an INTERNSHIP.

desiree is a CATHOLIC and she attends the 11am mass in the Church of the Holy Trinity every sunday with the SERAPHIM choir.
desiree is attached to the FIDES family in SMU. her life would be so different if she didn't have her Faith.

she loves to eat any kind of ICE CREAM and wouldn't mind chocolates as well.
she loves to shop and has a soft spot for shoes and dresses.

1:41 AM

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Things have been taking a toll on me these few days. Accompanied by my PMS, stress from all the project work which I am trying so hard to meet the deadline and weekly quizzes that has filled my calendar since two months ago, somehow, I think I am now very affected by things that are going around me.

Today, I realised that a few of my friends have started smoking out of the sudden. Maybe it is because of the stress from school. Maybe they have just been sucked into the whole trend of being cool means knowing how to smoke. I have no idea. They are old enough to know what is good and bad for them. But seeing my friends getting hooked unto smoking is like watching a friend choose to commit suicide, just that this suicide takes a longer time to happen.

I am not their mothers and I don’t think even their mothers have the ability to control them. But all these just made me reminisce the past. Reminisce the times where everyone did not have to worry about so many things, when all the people around you were good influence.
I visited my junior college class blog today and the blog skin was changed to photos that we took two years ago, when we were still 17 or 18. And Bryan, Wei Shun and Darren also put up some photos of them in Vietnam. They seem so happy, so carefree, so different from the people I hang around with right now.

Maybe it’s the university life, maybe it is the stress from the world we are facing.

But stress does not end, and university life is for students to enjoy. Are these all mere excuses for us to do things that will eventually harm our health? I really don’t think so.

I know I should not form my judgement and I know in the eyes of many people, I may seem naïve and caught in my own world. But at least I know that in my world, people don’t do things to harm themselves and allow the people around them to worry for them. In my world, people show unconditional love through their simple thoughts words and actions. All I want to do is remain in that world and how I wish, people around me has the same vision too.