Notebook of DREAMS

three cheers for me.

this blog belongs to DESIREE tan zhi ying.
desiree will be turning 21 on the 24th december 2009. she will love anything you give her, including your hugs and kisses.

you can add desiree on msn at crushgirl_18@hotmail.com or add her on facebook.
desiree studied in st. anthony's canossian primary and secondary school and later moved on to tampines junior college.
she is currently in SMU, doing her bachelors in business management and hopes to graduate by 2011.
right now, she doesn't need anything except an INTERNSHIP.

desiree is a CATHOLIC and she attends the 11am mass in the Church of the Holy Trinity every sunday with the SERAPHIM choir.
desiree is attached to the FIDES family in SMU. her life would be so different if she didn't have her Faith.

she loves to eat any kind of ICE CREAM and wouldn't mind chocolates as well.
she loves to shop and has a soft spot for shoes and dresses.

1:47 AM

Sunday, September 28, 2008

It’s been a rather long time since I blogged, and I think I must be crazy to blog during the most hectic few weeks I have in SMU. This term has been one traumatising one for me, maybe because of the extra modules that I am taking and the extra responsibilities that I have to bear. Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining here, but I realised that the ore stress I become, the more I lose my temper easily and get distracted. But I am glad that God has given me the chance to do so many things which I may not have the courage to take up by my own will.

These few weeks, I have been rushing my CAT assignments, preparing for FT interviews and mugging for my Finance and MA quizzes and tests. Next week I will have another two mid terms, which has very high weightage and I am totally not prepared for. All these mugging and studying has made me wonder, why do people actually study? I used to be able to tell people that I like university life because it is more flexible and it seems like it is more of my part-time job. My commitments to Fides and Church seem to be more like a full-time job.

But coming to year 2, I think the situation is totally different and I am sure as the years progress, it will get worse. But why do we study so hard? Because we want to do well, to get a high GPA and get a good paying job? Or because we want to do better than our friends because of our pride? Or maybe it is just because we want to satisfy our parents and maintain their hopes for their children? Well, I haven’t found my answer to the question of why I am studying, but I do know that I like studying more than working and that I am using that as a motivation for me to press on in the ever competitive environment like SMU.

Met up with a few of my long lost friends like Calista, Bernie and Carlene too during Bernie’s birthday party. It’s been so long since I last saw some of them and I really miss the secondary school times where we did not have to think so much, where the responsibilities on our shoulders weren’t as heavy as them now. At that time, we were only 16, and we thought we had the world in our hands. Now we are 20, we realise that the world consists of so much more dreams that we might not be able to reach in our entire lives.

After Bernie’s party, I met up with the councillors in TPJC. Not all of them turned up as usual, but it was definitely nice seeing Jaspreet, Sujana and Nadia… the four of us back in action again. Together with Ming Hao, Benin, Ili, Fatin, Ranjani, Iskandar and Vinod, we talked about almost everything under the sky. As we chatted, I realised that people around me are forever changing. Some of them have gone from single to attach or the other way around, some of them have really grown into outstanding individuals and some of them have chosen to walk very different routes from what most of us would take. While I know that those paths aren’t easy to take, I am glad that they have done their best and gave their all, bearing the consequences of their actions and making the best of the situation. For now, all I can do for the people around me is PRAY.

And I am going to end my entry with …

Heavenly Father, I pray for all my friends that you will guide them on their life’s journey. Be with them through their ups and downs and help them know that whatever they go through, it is because you have a greater plan in mind for them. Keep them safe and bless them with good health and happiness. :)