i realise that i'm not doing well in class.
i have the slacking attitude and i'm not focusing.
i'm not gaining the lesson on how important are tests and practices, and basically, i'm mad everyday in class.
i'm trying to calm down and be myself again, but i can't.
i'm not sure why, but i think i want to be myself again.
i think it's because of lack of communication i have with my darling, makes me feel sad. (my darling is MESSI by the way)
i want to get a scholarship and go to Spain, i want to study in Spain.
But that's beyond possibility. basically, just impossible.
Oh well.

Today went to watch a movie with rong teng.
So touching. So sweet.
Makes me feel so much on wanting a pet.
But then i was thinking, when the pet dies, I'm going to cry.
Cry buckets and buckets. Maybe enough to fill a bath-tub.
So i decided, i will not have a pet, unless the pet doesn't die, and doesn't have any illness.
Anyway, done with relaxation, back to studying!